Country music star Carrie Underwood recently opened up about how her faith has seen her through some of the darkest times of her life.
Despite selling more than 60 million records worldwide and being honored with seven Grammy awards, these past couple of years have been a real test for Underwood her husband, former NHL star Mike Fisher. A series of miscarriages and dangerous accident caused her to re-examine her relationship with God and find hope when she felt all had been lost.
“2017 just wasn’t how I imagined it,” Underwood told CBS This Morning. “I’d kind of planned that 2017 was, you know, going to be the year that I work on new music, and I have a baby. We got pregnant early 2017, and didn’t work out.”
To make matters worse, when taking her dogs out one night, Carrie had what she described as a “freak accident,” tripping on a step and smashing her face into the ground. She required “40 to 50 stitches” following the dramatic fall, and even had to undergo surgery on her injured wrist.
But after suffering a miscarriage, and the serious fall, Underwood and Fisher thought the worst was behind them, and kept trying for a baby. Then, tragedy struck once again.
“In the beginning, it was like, ‘Okay, God, we know this is, just wasn’t Your timing. And that is all right,” she said, adding that the couple “got pregnant again in the spring, and it didn’t work out.”
She had suffered a second miscarriage, but her woes were still not over yet.
“Got pregnant again, early 2018,” she explained, before adding that this also “didn’t work out” — another miscarriage.
“So, at that point, it was just kind of like, ‘Okay, like, what’s the deal? What is all of this?'” Underwood said. “And throughout the whole process, you know, I’m writing and, like, literally right after finding out that I would lose a baby, I’d have a writing session, I’d be like, ‘Let’s go. You know, I can’t just sit around thinking about this. Like, I wanna work, I wanna do this.'”
Back in 2015, Underwood and her husband were blessed with their first child, a baby boy, Isaiah. But then later this year, as the couple endeavored to grow their family, the singer was convinced that she was having another miscarriage. Lost in a spiral of despair, she sought the Lord with all her heart.
“Mike was away just for the evening, and I texted him, and I was like, ‘I don’t really want to be alone, so I’m just gonna go snuggle with Isaiah.’ And I don’t know how I didn’t wake him up, but I was just sobbing,” Underwood explained.
“And I was like, ‘Why on Earth do I keep getting pregnant if I can’t have a kid? Like, what is this? Shut the door. Like, do something. Either shut the door or let me have a kid,'” she pleaded. “And for the first time, I feel like I actually I told God how I felt. And I feel, like, we’re supposed to do that. That was like a Saturday – and the Monday I went to the doctor to, like, confirm another miscarriage. And they told me everything was great!”
“And I was like, ‘You heard me.’ Not that He hasn’t in the past,” Underwood noted. “But maybe, I don’t know, He heard me.”
Despite being visibly pregnant, Underwood is still getting up on stage to perform before sell-out crowds, with her husband and son often watching from the wings.
And though she is passionate about her music, the country icon is also immensely excited to grow her young family, as she anticipates the arrival of their latest addition in a few months time.
“We’re excited to add to the family,” Underwood told Jimmy Fallon, noting that Isaiah will have to get used to the idea of “sharing Mommy.”
“He’ll be really sweet and talk to my belly and kiss my belly,” the singer said of her young son. “He’s the sweetest little boy. But no kid can really know that their life is going to change… He’ll have to share Mommy.”
Underwood released her sixth studio album, “Cry Pretty,” last week. Upon listening to the title track, you might just recognize some of the pain that she has described being poured into her lyrics.
“The title refers to when emotions take over and you just can’t hold them back,” the artist said of the lead track. “It really speaks to a lot of things that have happened in the past year and I hope when you hear it, you can relate those feelings to those times in your life. It’s emotional. It’s real. And it rocks!”
(H/T: CBS Sunday Morning)