“I feel like I lost nine years of my life.” That’s how Laura Beth Perry Smalts now sees the nine years she desperately tried to live as a transgender man.
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Smalts, a Christian who openly shares her journey of gender confusion, explained the conundrum she once found herself in.
“I just thought [I was a] man born in a woman’s body,” Smalts said during the recent conclusion of the “Generational Indoctrination” podcast. “And I just needed to fix the body.”
Smalts’ quest to transition, though, led her on a search to desperately try to prove she was anything but her biological gender. She took hormones and had surgery to change every aspect of her body — including the removal of her reproductive system — to match her internal feelings.
“There was all the regret, too, of just the things that I’ve done to my body — the fact that I didn’t have breasts anymore,” she explained. “And I ended up getting married, and my husband didn’t know if I’d ever have breasts again. I was able to get breast surgery about three months ago and get implants, but it’s not the same.”
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Smalts, who became a Christian while still living as a transgender man and eventually de-transitioned, now ponders why none of the doctors caring for her mentioned the damaging nature of the medical procedures in which she engaged.
“It’s so maddening when I look back … where are the doctors that were willing to say, ‘Hey, wait a second, this is really not good for your body?’” Smalts said.
She shared how, at one point during her transgender journey, her blood had started to thicken, but rather than urge her to stop treatments, the doctor caring for her reportedly took a different avenue.
“My blood levels were so bad … my blood was too thick,” she said. “[My doctor was] afraid I was in danger of a stroke, but, instead of telling me this wasn’t good for me, she had me going to the blood bank every month or so to do a therapeutic withdrawal, where they would just take a ton of blood out of me to try to spin out the blood.”
Smalts added, “Why didn’t anybody ever say like, ‘This is just really not good for you, your body?’”
Tragically, she will never be able to have a biological child with her now-husband — something deeply challenging and heartbreaking.
“Now that I’ve gotten married, that has been a huge regret, and I have shed so many tears over not being able to have a baby with my husband,” she said.
Smalts is just one of the thousands who have become enveloped in the transgender craze. She previously shared her story with CBN’s Faithwire, explaining how she believed many lies that led her on the initial transgender journey.
Her inevitable changes took root as she researched further invasive surgeries and saw some of the potential complications.
“I just realized with horror that I was never going to be a man, no matter what I did,” Smalts told Faithwire earlier this year. “I started to realize … I could have this outer appearance of a man, everyone could think I was a man, but I knew the truth inside.”
Smalts continued, “I was constantly having to override that truth. It’s like in Romans 1, where it says, ‘They suppressed the truth in unrighteousness.’ I knew the truth the whole time, but I was constantly trying to override it.”
Read more about her story here.
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